No Regrets

Today I am grateful that I have no real regrets. Sure, there’s the little things (like I regret that last row of chocolate I inhaled because now I feel a bit sickly!), but when it comes to the big stuff in life I’m happy with my choices.

I’m a big believer in making the best decision we can at the time with the information we have available. Beyond that, everything we choose shapes us into the person we are. All of the lessons learned along the way are important to the soul and mine certainly wouldn’t be the same had I not chosen a hard road on a few occasions.

Statistically speaking you might expect me to be quite bitter or jaded after having been divorced twice now. Instead I believe in idyllic love more now than ever. If it weren’t for the personal growth and reflection done in that hazy-blurry post-failed-marriage state I might never have evolved into the openly bisexual person I am. Without it I would never know the joy and everyday delight my girlfriend brings into my world.

I never quite know where the next turn will take me in life but I never regret the ones already done for they make me who I am, and I like me.


Time Alone

Today I am grateful for time alone. Actually, every day I’m grateful for time alone!

I love being around people, I really do, but the downside of it is that it drains my energy; it sucks the life right out of me. In order for me to function well I need regular periods of time spent on my own.

I’ve become aware in these last few years that I also need a break away from my life about once a year. A period of time where I’m not bound by responsibility and obligation, but time where I can really think. Time to be alone with myself and with my thoughts. When I’m absorbed in living my life I struggle to hear my inner voice, but when I’m alone (and often on the other side of the world!) I hear it loud and clear.

I didn’t work this out until I was in my late 30s. In hindsight it’s probably why I spent a lot of time focussed on other people before then, and not living life for myself.


My 30s

Today I am grateful for every day of my 30s, and I’ve found myself reflecting on those 10 years with a quiet sense of achievement. They certainly haven’t been easy but they have been rich with learning and personal growth.

As I spend my last few minutes of my 30s capturing this feeling in words, I feel content, and loved, and proud of the person I am. More than anything I’m grateful for feeling like I finally know myself.

When you know yourself, everything else just falls into place.